Emotionally Unavailable

Damn you for making me care.
(I pretend this is for the best)
Did I push you away? (No.)
Anyone else, certainly, yes.

It's like that girly song said
However cheesy, or typical:
"Can't get you out of my head."
Damn me for being irrational

I'm suspicious of anyone who's "too nice"
and this is why
I never believed someone could trick me twice
and this is why

Left alone I take it to the extreme
It seemed we were lovers --
But really I created this dream;
It seemed like --
I loved you (for a day)

If you call me again? I'm sure you will soon--
If you answered me, I'd have nothing to say
If you made the slightest mention that you might
possibly,
quietly,
desperately,
LOVE ME BACK
(Then would I push you away? Certainly yes.)