secrets

Not-so-secret
you told me yourself
you'll always be the kind of person who disappoints
well, I'll always be the kind of person who expects
I'll always be the kind of person who gets hurt
when you don't do what you said.

and i'll be the one
pretending to be alone
while she's counting up her secrets
& painting on her frown.

tired of being that person
who does that thing
tired of being that person
who can't decide anything

i like to please.
it's a coffee morning and the wind comes in cold
from the sun-blue lake
where the birds cry out.
I like to please.

long days ahead
long days and starlit afternoons
fields of wandering gray,
and heat waves in the
muttering clouds