What i really want to say is:
I wish you'd just grow up and snap out of your bigoted fantasies and be a real human being. Perhaps you never learned how; your parents seem to have really failed when they raised you. But you need to stop feeling so goddamn sorry for yourself and stop ruining your life and the lives of everyone else around you. You don't have to make up things to be unhappy about, because there are already enough to make you miserable. Instead you have to face what is really wrong and do something about it. Maybe it's shallow and hedonistic to want to enjoy life, but in the end, what else is there?

Did you just find something in some movie and book somewhere and decide to make your life into a carbon copy? Just like when you say you care about me - you're using someone else's words, someone else's feelings, not your own. And I can tell that it's fake. You are so fake.
You've made up this story with no scientific background ( although you base it on fact, but won't quote your sources...and you won't listen to anyone else's feelings or thoughts or knowledge on the matter you just RANT and RANT and RANT and are as offensive as possible - that's the whole point.) Are you afraid if you aren't offensive people might actually like you and you might have to open up and show your real self?
Because other people are scared too. Other people are alone. You aren't the only one.
What makes you think that you are so much better than everyone else? Why do you have to separate yourself from "the masses"? Maybe if you just worked a day in your life... but that's not true because I don't want anyone to have that grueling fate. But you have to learn the difference between being trapped and being responsible.